HOW I BLOCKED MY BLESSINGS PART 1

Have you ever asked God for something and you wanted to receive it a particular way?
Your answer is probably yes.
Well, let me give you an example of how I blocked my blessing.

I was going to college and kept asking God to give me money for school. I begged and pleaded for a scholarship. I didn't want to receive money for school through any loans because I would have to pay that money back. I applied for scholarships left and right. I have applied for so many scholarships I have lost count.

So one day I went to the mailbox and there was a letter from one of the scholarships I had applied for. Before I even opened it, I got excited and was smiling hard. I knew that I received my scholarship. I was laughing and saying yes I have money for school.

So I smiled all the way back to my apartment thinking to myself, I have money for school. My prayer has been answered. I sat on the couch and opened the letter. The letter read:

Dear Ms. Johnson,

There were a lot of candidates that applied for this scholarship, however, you were not selected. Please try again next year.

Sincerely,

Scholarship Committee

That smile that I had on my face turned into a frown. I was upset, mad, disappointed, and angry with God. I told him, "I asked for money to pay for school through a scholarship and why haven't I received it. Are you trying to be funny? I am all happy about a letter I received and I didn't even get any money."

And soon after that I received more e-mails and letters notifying me that I was denied a scholarship. After a while I wasn't even angry anymore.

I prayed again and this time I just asked can I have money for school. Something in my spirit said apply for a loan. These are the self-doubts I started speaking to myself:

My credit isn't all that great.
I don't think that I will be able to get a loan.
I may need a co-signer and who can I ask to co-sign for my loan.
How am I going to pay that money back?

Even with all those negative thoughts I had in my head, I finally told them to shut up. I thought about how blessed I am and all the situations God has brought me through. So I made a phone call to my grandmother and asked if she could co-sign for my loan. She happily agreed. I got on the Internet and applied for that loan. Yes, I received the loan I needed for school! I know that God will make a way for me to pay that money back and have more than enough money in my bank account. GOD IS GOOD!

The lesson that I learned from this incident is that when you ask God for something do not expect to receive it a certain way. When God blesses you, he will bless you the best way He sees fit.

And what is so funny is that after I learned this lesson, I met another girl who was thinking the same way I was. She was receiving scholarships from school and expected to continue to get scholarships. She was angry with God because she had to get a loan for school. She went and talked to her pastor and he told her to get a loan. She even said she was mad at him because he didn't give her the answer she wanted to here. When I listened to her, I thought to myself how ignorant she sounded. I explained to her my situation and she changed her way of thinking. I guess everything happens for a reason.

Be Blessed.